10Oct

The silence overwhelms me.
I cannot feel any pain, but yet I scream.
The silence screams with me.
Almost deafening.  Almost unbearable.
And as quickly as it comes, it disappears.

Not sure if I can make it to the morning.
I look at the clock beside my bed.
And the clock reads 3am.
The ticking goes on and on and on.
And the minutes do not move.
It seems to last for days.
And days into weeks.
But the minutes still do not move.

I close my eyes and try to clear my head.
Trying to forget, but not really succeeding.
Can I forget her.
Her eyes.
Her lips.
Her smile.
But slowly the eyes start to fade.
Then the lips.
And finally her smile.
But I can still smell her in the night.
I try to scream, but nothing.
Opening my mouth wider, still nothing comes.
Not a peep.
I take another big gasp of air.
As if it was my last.
My lungs burning from the pressure.
A tear rolls down my cheek.
And I turn across the bed.
Then sleep overwhelms me.